I was going to do a vlog today but I can get my thoughts out quicker by typing while Colton is napping. Today is my last day of maternity leave and it’s mostly sweet with a slight hint of bitter. I’ve decided to look at returning to work as getting one day closer to having the weekend with my baby. My mom will be watching him most days and he will go to a sitter once a week or so when my mom has doctor appointments or other things going on. The sitter is wonderful with him but I have to say that I feel most comfortable when he’s with family.
I imagined today consisting of me holding and cuddling with him the entire day and so far that’s what is has been with the exception of my OB appointment this morning. Today I got Mirena and it was pretty much painless with the exception of some cramping and I expected that. What I did not expect was to feel sad. Don’t get me wrong… I do not want another baby just yet and I especially don’t want to be pregnant right away. So why am I a little sad? I think part of me is scared that this can’t happen again. I love being a mother so much and I would be absolutely devastated if we couldn’t have another baby. I still can’t help but think that my sad feelings are a little irrational though.
I would have updated you on Colton’s weight and height but his 2 month appointment didn’t happen. I would go into more detail about this, but with my new audience, I’m not going to go there. I’ll just say that there’s a glitch with his insurance and we’re just waiting on paperwork to go through. Once that happens he will have his appointment. Hopefully that will be within the next few days.
That’s a brief update! I may do a vlog/blog later on this weekend. I hope everyone is doing well!